as usual…

I’ve been lacking with the blog posts.  I’ve thought about the blog often and have had every intention of writing up posts, but couldn’t sit down and write.  Simply put, I was mentally exhausted from job hunting, which left me uninspired to do anything creatively.  I didn’t talk about it much because I didn’t know what would happen.  And if I would even be given a chance to get a new opportunity, considering I was at my previous company for the last 8 years.  I was constantly saddened when weeks would go by and there were some prospects but then silence thereafter.  I went through a rollercoaster of emotions.  Thankfully my supportive and awesome husband was there to cheer me up and give me a pep talk when I needed one (he is my rock and then some).  You could get glimpse of my emo-ness here.  But as the saying goes and as cliche as it is, “Good things come to those who wait.”  And it did!  I LANDED A JOB where I don’t have to travel any more (no more time away from the hubs and Eva unless I need a break) and it was for a company based in the Bay Area.  It is a little bittersweet that I’m not longer working from home, which is great because more human interaction for me, but I don’t see Eva during the day anymore (even if she was with her nanny/sitter most of the day while I worked).  😦  But the best part about working outside the house?  Being welcomed home with her adorable smile and hug.  I’m still concerned about all the issues in that previous post about being a working mom, the commute, etc.  I’d like to think we’re figuring it out and it’s working through it pretty well.  We find a way to make it work and make all parties happy.  We’re a team (corny I know, but so true!), but this opportunity is great and I’d be crazy to turn it down.

It’s been almost a month since I started and so far it’s gone fairly well.  I’m constantly worried that I’m going to completely mess something up (as any new person in a new position/company fears), but so far so good.  Everyone’s been so great and helpful.  My team is an inspiring professional bunch that I know will push me professionally.  I’m even considering certifications more seriously as well as becoming members of professional organizations.  Things I wouldn’t entertain or be concerned with.

Since I’m be working out of the house now, hopefully, you’ll see more lookbook posts here.  Still have to figure out a time that I can take said lookbook posts now that the sunsets pretty early.  I may even do a haul of office wear because my clothes from the office are a bit dated and a little big.  😦  I blame my postpartum weight loss.  Things haven’t gone back to where they previously were.  But Eva is worth it all and who doesn’t love going on a shopping spree?!?

I hope to be back here more often.  I’m still trying to figure out my schedule of when I can draft posts, between working a full day, coming home and making dinner with the family, spending time with the family, putting Eva to sleep, make everyone’s breakfast and lunch for the next day, and just relax before going to bed (what’s that?!?).  I’ll figure it out.

Hello dear friends…

It has been over a month since my last post.  My apologies dear friends.  It’s been a bit of a juggling act since Eva’s birthday.  I was busy planning her birthday party as we went back to the East Coast to celebrate with our families and friends.  Plus juggling work, traveling for work, mommy and wifey duties, etc…  Sigh.  I’ve missed you all.  I really have.  I’ve missed writing.  I’m constantly thinking of blog post ideas and have a few drafts posted, but I haven’t really had the time to sit down and write.  When I do, I’m just EXHAUSTED.  Plus I hate posting something that’s not 100% (something about being a perfectionist Virgo I suppose).

I hope you don’t mind, but today, I’m not going to be posting about outfits or recipes or mommy tips.  I want to just write and kind of give you some insight of where I’ve been the last couple of months as a working professional, mom, wife, woman, etc.  I’m not complaining about anything.  Just letting my thoughts out there.  I’m not expecting any sympathy.  I’m writing this to feel empowered and motivated.  Sorry if I end up rambling.  Here I go…

Next month, I’m turning (gulp) 30.  I’m not scared.  The number is a bit daunting, but really it’s a number.  I don’t feel 30.  I still think I’m relatively young.  I reevaluate what I’ve done in my life and I’ve done a good amount of things.  Graduate school, got a job and have progressed within the company for the last 8 years, travel to Europe, Morocco, and Fiji for work and for pleasure, move to the other side of the country with the love of my life where we started our own family, etc.  It’s a lot. My personal life is amazing, ABUNDANT and FRUITFUL.  I am so blessed with my husband, Eva, mom, sister, and in laws (who are so so good to me.  I’m blessed with such a welcoming family.)

But with that said, sometimes I have career envy.  I get a bit jealous of some friends who have done decently when it comes to their careers and are well off.  But then I remind myself there may be trade offs like longer work hours.  Recently, I’ve been reevaluating my career.  I’ve been asking myself “What’s next?”  Actually, it’s not lately, I’ve been asking myself this since having Eva.  But it feels like I’ve been reflecting on this a lot more recently because my work travel (which isn’t that often, maybe 5 days every 2 months on average) is getting to me.  I miss my family TERRIBLY when I’m on the road.  I’m not expecting to have an epiphany.  I know the answer to my question won’t happen overnight, but I’ve been doing a lot of thinking.  It’s a bit harder making some career moves now, with a baby, than before, when it was just me or just the two of us.  I really shouldn’t say harder but there are things you need to think about you didn’t have to before.  There are things you need to compromise on.  It’s no longer just my decision.  Things like how will daycare work with the commute?  How will Eva’s schedule be affected with a commute?  How will our family time and our husband and wife time be affected?  Let me step back and say I’m somewhat of a traditional wife.  Things like having dinner ready before the hubs comes home (luckily I work from home but it doesn’t always happens) are a bit important to me.  Yes, somewhat 50’s of me, but that’s how I was raised.  And that may be a separate post on the modern wife versus the traditional wife.

So my internal dilemma, as it was almost a year ago, is… Do I want to be a stay at home mom?  If so, is it possible?  And bless my husband, he would support me if I chose to, but I can’t have him bear that financial burden.  Not right now at least.  Well, if I can’t, now what?  I’ve been doing what I’ve been doing for the last 8 years and it’s not that I don’t like what I’m doing, but I’m looking for something different.  Maybe doing the same thing just a different industry?  Or maybe do something totally different?  Maybe go back to school?  Go back to school for something related in my field?  To compete with the rest of these techy people in the bay area?  Or go back to school for something that is completely unrelated and start my own business (I’ve toyed around with the idea of nutritionist or natural foods chef)?  Maybe.  I’m trying to answer the ultimate question.  How do I find that work life balance?  Is there such a thing?  Or is it an ideology that I’m giving too much weight to?  I always find it helpful reading Jo’s posts about work life motherhood balance.  I don’t feel so alone in my thoughts.

But the one thing that I have realized while writing here for the last 3 years is that I have somewhat of a creative side.  I was always a crafty child growing up, but not creative.  If that makes sense.  I always wrote down my feelings when I was angry or upset as an outlet because you can only talk so much (a journal if you may).  After all the talking, I felt that if I wrote it down I’d release my anger.  Sometimes forget.  Sometimes not.  What’s weird is that, I never thought I wrote well.  I knew my writing was alright, but it wasn’t the best.  But since blogging, I’m relatively proud of how I’ve found my voice when writing, which has made me realize I want to do something that’s part of a creative process.  But how to get there and what exactly are still questions on my mind.  Maybe this is the answer to it all.  Blogging.  Maybe if I dedicate more time to my passion, my passion and my profession will one day collide.  Maybe not.  The two will remain separate for now… but maybe… who knows.  In the meantime, it’s back to figuring out professionally what next.  And I don’t have the answer but I’m slowly discovering it little by little.  I won’t have it figured out by my birthday and I’m in no rush to.  My family supports me regardless and love me for the mom, wife, daughter, and sister I am.  That’s all I could ask for.

Wedding Season is near!!!

I have been out-of-town this week for work, working late hours, so I haven’t really been able to post this week.  I’m not in a cool city.  I’m in a city where it was 80s on Monday, 20s and snowing (REALLY?!?!!  It’s May!!!) on Wednesday, and 60s today.  Yes, I’ve gotten to experience almost every season this week.  Crazy weather!  I’m so happy to head back to sunny and warm California today!  Plus I get to see baby girl and hubs.  I miss them!!!  Anyhow, I want to share something with you that holds a special place in my heart.

Wedding season is near.  I’m sure all brides-to-be have pinned a TON of  ideas on Pinterest.  Some DIY, some ideas in concept.  DIY weddings have been pretty big for quite some time.  For the hubs and I, we did a lot of things ourselves when we tied the knot (Save the Dates, invitations, menus, programs, and monogram – he designed those being the graphic design minor that he is and wanting to add his personal touch- wedding trailers and slideshow, etc.).  It’s a great way to save money and add a personal touch to your wedding day that you and your future Mr or Mrs and your guests can enjoy.  Just be weary not to take on too many DIY projects.  I’m not going to sit here and give you all the DIY ideas that we did for our wedding because some of our wedding ideas were from Weddingbee, StyleMePretty, (well the templates we used.  but the designs were our own his.) and other wedding websites.  We didn’t know about Pinterest until the year after the wedding.  Hmph!  Oh well.

The one DIY project I will share with you that I thought was such a great touch to our wedding was our wedding trailers.  We still mailed out save the dates and our invitations but on these we told our guests to go to our website to check for updates and so forth.  When they went to our website, they were linked to our wedding videos on YouTube.  It was basically a multimedia Save The Date if you may.  My husband learned iMovie and Adobe Premier (by playing around with the applications and by watching YouTube tutorials) and created videos for everyone to enjoy.  It was his idea and I still loved that he came up with it.  It was different.  It was fun.  It was US!

Here are our two wedding videos.  Yes, my acting needs TONS of work.  😛

The first wedding trailer is to announce our engagement slash Save the Date.  I LOVE this song!  The handwriting in the video is my husband.  Like I mentioned he watch tutorials on how to add that into the video.

This next trailer was released a couple of months before our wedding.  This one was more playful but trying to tell a story at the same time.  We’re trying to tell a story about traveling for work (which btw this story isn’t 100% true to life) but it’s more so about being the silly yet fun couple we are (at least in our eyes).  This video gets a bit “sexy/steamy” during some parts, so if you’re easily offended by sexiness, I suggest you turn away.

Here are our tips for making a successful wedding trailer.  For us, our wedding trailers were almost like music videos that conveyed a story and showing our love for one another, as opposed to some Q&A wedding trailers (which I think is perfectly fine).  We left the details of how we met and how our love blossomed (teehee. corny choice of words, but true) on our wedding website.

  1. Create a story board.  Be creative.  The hubs (who is the creative brains of our family) thought of a story he wanted to tell in each wedding trailer.  During this brainstorming process, decide if you want to go with a funny theme or romantic or something else.  
  2. Show case your relationship and love.  I’m not saying be lovey dovey (which is ok too) but show your fun and personal sides.  Your guests are already happy that you two are tying the knot, but make them be even happier.  Make them believe that LOVE is a possibility (corny, I know, but I LOVE love.  I love it when people fall in love and share their love story with others.  I’m a hopeless romantic!  Ok, let me stop).  Make them believe that true LOVE exists (Let me stop with the cornyness.  But I just LOVE weddings!)
  3. Enlist a friend to help film while you’re in front of the camera.  If friends aren’t available, think about your location and if a tripod would be suitable to use.
  4. If where you two met or live or where you’ll be getting married is special to you, show case it in your video.  We weren’t able to film where we met (we met in college), but we filmed our second video in San Francisco.  Our family and friends on the east coast got a glimpse of our “backyard.”
  5. Tape as many scenes if you can (if memory card space isn’t an issue).  In addition, tape all those scenes multiple times if you can.  It’s better to go with more scenes when editing than less.  Take lots of B-roll as they say in the film industry (okay they may not actually say that, but I was trying to be cool.  😛 )
  6. Pick a background song that conveys the same message.
  7. Let loose and have fun.  Smile!  You’re only a couple of days/weeks/months away to spending the rest of your life with the person you love the most.  🙂

If you don’t want to opt to do the DIY route, you could also hire a videographer or photographer or film director to help you do this.  If you do, I suggest you work with them to add your personal spin and touch to the video.  Make sure they capture you as a couple and your love for one another.

If you’d like me to share other wedding DIY ideas in a future post, comment below!  If you have more questions about this post or other wedding DIY ideas, send me an email, message me via twitter or comment below! 

Happy wedding season!