Momma Diaries: This time a year ago…

I became a mother to a beautiful adorable baby girl.  I can’t believe she’s 1 today.  It really does feel like I had her yesterday.  From 6 pounds 8 ounces of pure baby bliss and joy to almost 20 pounds of walking and babbling energy.  I am still shocked that time has gone by so quickly this past year.  I still in shock that I’m a mom and have been for a year.  I’m still amazed and in complete awe of my daughter.  She’s just too freaking adorable (But I’m bias.  I am her mother).

I always knew I wanted to be a mother, but I didn’t think a love of a mother (or a father for that matter) would be this great.  My heart was already full with the love of my family and amazing husband, but it’s even fuller now.  Anytime I’m upset or sad or tired, I can look at her smile or hear her laugh and all those negative emotions go away.  She’s just everything to me; her and my husband.  I love my little family!

So much has changed in a year.  We can’t go to the movies spontaneously or go to dinner easily without thinking about the impact on Eva.  But I’m not complaining.  I love being home with her and the hubs.  This past year has been a year of self discovery and a learning experience.  I’ve learned so much from her about herself, about my husband, and about myself.

She’s definitely immersed in the stage of discovery at the moment.  And while, it can be frustrating sometimes because she’s the adventurous type (we’re talking climbing everything and anything, which my mom says is karma because I used to do that all the time as a child), I remind myself her curiosity is normal.  Her facial reactions to discovering something new is PRICELESS.  You remember how easy it is for you to put something together or understand how something works because it’s second nature.  But for a child, it’s like a complicated math puzzle that they just solved and their excitement is just amazing.  It’s so adorable.

Her personality is definitely shining through, despite having 4 teeth coming in at one time (yes, the week leading up to her birthday.  only two of which have broken through.  agh.  my poor girl).  She’s social, smiley, and happy.  She loves waving to strangers and having them smile at her.  She’s LOVES the attention (sounds like a true first born.  I should know, I am one.  Ha.).  She can have a temper like her mom though (yikes), but I’m trying to be better and lead by example, so she doesn’t pick up my bad habits.  She doesn’t seem to have separation anxiety yet (knock on wood).  As long as we say, it’s okay, she’ll go with whomever.  She’s just so happy!  It’s so great!

I’m really at a lost for words.  Shocker right?  I want to say so much more about this past year and this amazing love I have for her and our family.  I just can’t express how amazing she is and how I want nothing but the best for her.  I want to better our lives for her.  We aren’t struggling and we don’t live in excess.  I’m not saying I want to spoil but I want to enrich her life.  More so in meaningful experiences, whether it be family time or travel or random family outings or sitting with her to read a book or unplugging, etc.  I want to find that work-life balance to be able to give her the time she needs from me.  And I’ve done a decent job thus far I think, but there’s definitely room for improvement.  She and my husband are my motivation.  They are my everything.


To my sweetest and adorable baby girl Eva,

Playing with her birthday presents: her own little chair and Minnie doll

HAPPY FIRST BIRTHDAY!!!  You have been one of the best things that has ever happened to me and your dad.  You will never know how much you have filled our hearts with so much love and joy.  We want nothing but the best for you plus more.  Can’t wait to see you grow more.

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